November

This month has been full of surprises.
Full of winning, full of potential, and full of fun.

I don't think I can remember a time before this where I was this content and happy with life and where I am at the moment.
Let me say what's been going on.

A week ago today I had called into a radio station and won a prize pack of tickets of  sorts. A pair of tickets to an acoustic lounge session with Vance Joy (which was awesome) and a pair of tickets to see the new Hunger Games movie (MockingJay).
Also, new potentials in the love life are happening and it's been going great. Won't go into major detail since it's a new thing.

Anyways, today! I also called in and won more tickets, to see Bastille, and it just feels like the craziest month.
I have never felt so lucky/blessed in my life to have things be working out like this.
It actually feels entirely too surreal and maybe someone just needs to pinch me because this is insane.


Basically, I don't know what to do with myself.
Buy a lottery ticket?
Enter more contests?

I don't know. I'm pretty happy at the moment so I think I'll stay in it as long as I can.

Thank you.

My birthday '14

This year was probably the best birthday I've ever had.

Seattle for the whole weekend was a success in so many ways, I can't even believe it happened. 

Got down there Friday and just checked into the hotel we were staying at, which was awesome and great in itself. 

Saturday came and we started out the day with some hot cocoa and tea from the coffe shop downstairs, which was amazing to say the least! The hot cocoa was the best ever! (It tasted like chocolate and marshmallows.. Yum!)

We ventured down to Pike Place Market and walked through the shops, meeting a cool Russian guy at a great bookstore and getting to try some interesting fruits (persimmons, if you didn't know, taste like a vegetable). We also went to the Seattle Art Museum and walked around for a bit before we got lunch.

We then proceeded to go back to the hotel and take naps.. And then get ready for dinner!

Met up with more of our friends at the restaurant we chose. Got some drinks, food and opened a couple presents.

Then had some drunk guys come over and invade our space and be annoying.

We left and went to our next location where we got drinks and waited for one of my friends from work and his brother, where we talked and he met my friends. 

We tried to make a plan for where we were going next and then walked to our next location although the cover charge at the first club seemed ridiculous and we left to go to a different one, which was only $10 cheaper but ended up being good. We took a cab and got in and danced for a long long time!

Took a cab back to the hotel and went to sleep.

Woke up and started from the beginning.

Cocoa first, packed up stuff in the car, went to pike place to pick up last minute stuff and headed home.

The best thing about the weekend was how many of my friends actually came out. I can't remember the last time I had that many of my close friends in the same place and they were there for me.. For my birthday!

It was great getting to know a new friend a little better and to have him get to know me and see my friends. This never happens! Dancing was great and so funny! 

I absolutely loved this weekend! I will forever cherish this birthday.

23 has started out so amazing! Let's keep it up? All you can do is try :]

Travel: Journeying from place to place

In all of my life, the one thing (I've been realizing more than anything lately) that I want to do with my life, is travel.
I want to go, to get out, to live and to see.
There's so much here for me, in the Seattle area. Work, friends, family.
But I'm so tired of being here, stuck. I'm tired of being stationary and I want to be mobile.
I think I'm going to have to sign up for a trip every year, if not every other year so that I can get out of here, especially to further off places, that's what I mean.
Next year I'm taking a trip back to Europe, Germany, Italy and Switzerland that I keep getting more and more excited about, although more and more nervous as well.
I'm more nervous because I'll be going with a group of people I don't know and I tend to be a little shy at first.
I know that it will be an amazing thing for me though and everyone I've told so far is entirely jealous, but anyone can do it! I just so happened to have enough courage to sign up and not back out of it.

Anyways.
A part from that, I will travel as much as I can throughout my lifetime.
I want to go to Thailand and be a part and witness the lantern festival.
I want to go to New Zealand to see where Lord of the Rings was filmed.
I want to ride an elephant in Malaysia.
Sit and soak up the beaches in the Bahamas.
See the great ruins of Machu Picchu.
Witness the running of the bulls in Spain.

I just want to go. To see. To hear. To be somewhere else for a little bit.

Halloween 2014

This year was an interesting year for Halloween. I have been in a great spot and being at a new job with people who like to have fun, just makes things so much better.

I dressed up as a mermaid for work (a simple and not slutty one) with scaled leggings and a purple top.

It was so awesome seeing the creativity and excitement people had at work for the Halloween holiday. So much good food and lots of fun talking to people throughout the day.

Nighttime was a bit different. One of my best friends got ready, this time as simple black cats and we went to meet her sister in law (also a black cat) out at a bar for a Halloween party where we planned to dance the night away, which we did.

I forgot they were having a psychic there to do readings and talk to you, until she walked up to us and told us to come talk to her, she proceeded to tell me there was a lot of good coming to me in my future..

So when we were all finally there we went over to talk to her where she told me to start out and make three wishes but to tell her only two. The ones I told her were that I wish to travel the world and I wish to eventually get married.

From there, she told me that I would travel a lot in my lifetime, which already is amazing because I want to incredibly bad.

Then she told me that I should stay at my current job because it is very good for me and will be promising for the future, which made me happy to hear.

Last, she told me I would be meeting my soulmate in the new future, probably before the new year.. Which I don't know if I entirely believe but I guess I'll have to wait and see since it's coming soon.

She also ended by saying that I will be in good health and that I'm going on the right path in my life, which just made me feel awesome.

That in itself was probably the thing I wanted to hear most, knowing that I'm going in the right direction is amazing, I took the steps to get there and it's working out so far! 

Both of my friends then talked to her as well and we danced the night away, having a great night despite the creepy and touchy-feely guys that were also there. 

I was happy with how this Halloween turned out. Much better than previous ones.

Hope everyone else had a great holiday. 

More to come!

Today is the anniversary of when my dad passed away 2 years ago.
Sometimes when I see pictures of him or even when I just think about him like he used to be, I think there's no way he could be gone. He's just on another trip and he'll be home soon, like he usually is 3 or so times during the year..
I miss him and it makes me sad because while I think about him a lot sometimes, it feels like its been longer than 2 years that he's been gone and I'm not sure how I feel about that.
I feel entirely too bad for my mom and I know that holds me back some from getting out and doing what I want to. I'm the strong one in the family so I'm there when people need me and she still does.
I know she misses him more than anything and I wish I could talk to her about it, but I'm not good for that. I don't like getting into emotional conversations with my family, it's too much for me, too awkward.

Anyways, we're getting by. I'm helping but I want to get out. I'm giving my mom time and I hope she starts to take more advantage of it. I know she's been thinking about it too, but nothing has really been set into motion at all and that's kind of scary.

My dad was the best. Before he passed away he was in his 60's and still playing sports like volleyball and indoor soccer, which is crazy to think that he was more in shape than me, his 20 year old daughter! I love my dad, he was a great guy.
I will never forget him being there when I graduated from high school and got my AA from college.
I will also never forget him telling me before this day 2 years ago that he was really proud of me...
I know he would still be proud of me too which is what I strive for on a daily basis.

Miss you. RIP Dad.

Never give up.

This past year has been full of ups and downs and so many changes it's been hard to wrap my head around it, but in the end I'm so happy for where I'm at now.
At the start of 2014 I thought things were going ok.
I was still with the same guy I'd always been with, wandering down the road towards the future we thought we would have. I thought things were getting better with us, but we still fought a lot and that's never really pleasant, but it's normal in relationships, right?
Anyways, we made it to just about our three years and a jealous fight turned into a break up. That was the start to my summer.
That lead to a domino effect of things that seemed to happen from that point on.
I got my first actual dog bite, signed up for a Europe trip on my own, started going out more, went out with new guys, and got a new job...and found new friends!
Who knew from one ending could come so many new beginnings?
From that horrible, horrible ending came something that I needed, respect for myself.
That relationship that I had been in was unhealthy and I learned that I didn't want someone like the person I was settling for. There is so much more out there and someone is going to make me a lot happier than I could ever think.
The hard part is waiting, of course, but I think that it'll be worth it. I know I have time, I have a myriad of time to be me and to find someone who is going to love me for that and respect me and the life I live. As well as someone that I can respect as well.
I think as a growing woman, I'm still constantly learning and I know I still have a lot to work on with myself, but I know that I'm making steps in the right direction and I couldn't be happier with that.
Life is all about what YOU make it. While I didn't choose to be alone at the time, I wish I would have long before that. I needed to be independent and I needed to make some critical decisions and changes within myself and my life and I did that.
I know there will always be obstacles in life, but I'm trying to constantly keep my head up, because what else can you do? Hope will get you through. Faith will get you through. There's so much out there, sometimes it just takes one thing to set everything else into motion.

All in all, I couldn't be more excited for what life and God has in store for my future.
I'm impatient for it.
Just another thing to work on!