Moving on.

Life is all about one thing. Moving on.
We're always moving on from one thing to the next, from one person to another, and from one place across to somewhere else.

I've always been the one waiting, waiting for something that's a potentially great thing. What I don't do is look at what's right in front of my face most of the time, which is what I found out. He's already there.

The waiting game has never been one I like to play and waiting on a guy to actually want me is like waiting for some rain in the desert. Probably not going to happen. I was so blind to not see that I already had what I wanted and needed.

Waiting is not worth it for me anymore, although I'm still entirely confused about my future.
I've decided on the guy, but I haven't decided on where I'm going to go next year.
I want to get away, far away. To live elsewhere for a bit, even though I plan to come back.
I'm just not sure how it's going to work quite yet.
My plans are up in the air, literally, in my head.

The guy I'm planning on may not want to be a part of my outrageous plans to get away.
What if he doesn't?
I'll probably end up a lonely cat lady. Most likely, but hopefully with big cats, like a lion or a tiger.
Guys just don't always fit into my plans and I guess for now at least I can say it was fun for the time being, right?

See, I'm scatterbrained. So much going on at once. Boys, plans, travel, animals, and food. Didn't I say food?

My life is a chaotic whirlwind, mostly inside my head, that nobody knows about.
That's all.
That's it.

Life is crazy and amazing and not always what you expect. That's what I'm planning on I guess, for the unexpected. But I'm always hoping for what I want.
A life of travel and love and animals and food.
That would be ok with me.
But if life is unexpected, it's probably going to be me, alone, traveling, scraping by and doing what I can to live out my life the way I want. Alone.

Life is crazy.

Cheers to yours.

Never give up.

This past year has been full of ups and downs and so many changes it's been hard to wrap my head around it, but in the end I'm so happy for where I'm at now.
At the start of 2014 I thought things were going ok.
I was still with the same guy I'd always been with, wandering down the road towards the future we thought we would have. I thought things were getting better with us, but we still fought a lot and that's never really pleasant, but it's normal in relationships, right?
Anyways, we made it to just about our three years and a jealous fight turned into a break up. That was the start to my summer.
That lead to a domino effect of things that seemed to happen from that point on.
I got my first actual dog bite, signed up for a Europe trip on my own, started going out more, went out with new guys, and got a new job...and found new friends!
Who knew from one ending could come so many new beginnings?
From that horrible, horrible ending came something that I needed, respect for myself.
That relationship that I had been in was unhealthy and I learned that I didn't want someone like the person I was settling for. There is so much more out there and someone is going to make me a lot happier than I could ever think.
The hard part is waiting, of course, but I think that it'll be worth it. I know I have time, I have a myriad of time to be me and to find someone who is going to love me for that and respect me and the life I live. As well as someone that I can respect as well.
I think as a growing woman, I'm still constantly learning and I know I still have a lot to work on with myself, but I know that I'm making steps in the right direction and I couldn't be happier with that.
Life is all about what YOU make it. While I didn't choose to be alone at the time, I wish I would have long before that. I needed to be independent and I needed to make some critical decisions and changes within myself and my life and I did that.
I know there will always be obstacles in life, but I'm trying to constantly keep my head up, because what else can you do? Hope will get you through. Faith will get you through. There's so much out there, sometimes it just takes one thing to set everything else into motion.

All in all, I couldn't be more excited for what life and God has in store for my future.
I'm impatient for it.
Just another thing to work on!